/ub/ - Überhengst

>Nazi Horsefucker Edition
Vent frustrations and life issues that don't deserve their own thread here.

I haven't visited here in a long time. If you know who I am, then no need to bother with a recap on my life story. If not, it doesn't matter either way.

I'm sending in my two weeks' notice at my job. Too little training for my current position, too heavy a workload, nowhere near enough pay, only barely enough hours to make my living. I am getting a phone set up in the morning, and when it's all ready I'll be sending my applications to anywhere that'll take me.

Let's talk career paths, jobs, and finances. I don't believe /ub/'s ever talked at length about this topic, and perhaps my own situation could be made into a case study to help others in my shoes.

I do not wish to spend money on college or university, although I may go for a trade school education if need be. I have only a year's experience in grocery work, and very little saved up. I have a housing situation that I cannot escape until next July, with a somewhat steep rent. Preferred jobs would be productive labor - but in the literal sense of making something tangible. Things like construction, HVAC, plumbing, carpentry, smithing, welding. Area is mostly urban, no agricultural work near where I live. How would I go about getting most of these jobs?

File unrelated. Although related to my mood.

ITT, we sharpen our programming skills and talk about the theory behind computing. All languages and skill levels are welcome. Please see the options page on how to present code in a post.

I don't normally watch this kind of crap but someone sent it to me. Feel better about yourselves because you are not this nigger.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=DyW7kERNE2o

This can't be fucking legit.
As of February 7 2023 Steam says he has:
Nekopara Extra: 17,125 hours
Nekopara Vol. 0: 17,123 hours
Nekopara Vol. 1: 17,112 hours
Nekopara Vol. 2: 17,104 hours
Nekopara Vol. 3: 17,101 hours
Nekopara Vol. 4: 16,803 hours
Nekopara - Catboys Paradise: 7,895 hours

Total: 110,263 hours
He's played Vol. 1 at least since December 30 2014 (His first achievements). That's about 2,961 days, or 71,064 hours.
On average he's spent about 11% of his days since 2014 playing Nekopara.
Has Nekopara Vol 1 even existed for that long on Steam? Does this faggot have every game running overnight 24/7 at the same time?
These numbers cannot be real.
Sometimes overclocking a game with emulation/Cheat Engine fucks with in game time.

Pic unrelated

Hey /üb/, how much do you know about Narcissism?
I'd like to direct your attention to Dr. Ramani Dursavula - clinical psychologist, professor at CSU LA, author, youtuber etc, and arguably the leading authority on Narcissism.
The problem with Narcissism as a clinical disorder is that it doesnt bear any of the classical signs of a disorder; the people who bear the symptoms of a narcissistic relationship are not the narcissist themselves, but the people around them. The problem is exacerbated by the fact that narcissists are over-represented in otherwise successful, prestigious, and competitive professions, fields, and careers, effectively calling into question the idea of dysfunction and disorder.
Narcissistic abuse is real, and it's a problem that is not getting any better by the cultural shifts brought about by mass media and technology. What's more, it isnt just the narcissist one has to be on the lookout for, there are plenty of people out their doing the bidding (they're called 'flying monkeys', ala the Wizard of Oz) of narcissists.
Arguably the worst trait of narcissists and those who work on their behalf is that of Gaslighting, which is the deliberate undermining of a person, their perspective/experience, reputation and standing, and other social interactions.
As an easy example, let's look at CNN. Let's assume for a moment that Brian Stelter, Rachel Maddow, Chris Quomo and Don Lemon arent malignant narcissists. I know, but bear with me.
It doesnt matter for those mentioned to not be narcissists if their job is to gaslight on behalf of Jeff Zucker. And what are some examples of gaslighting? Russian hackers, Quid pro quo, Epstein killed himself, Hunyer Biden, and of course muh Covid. A person can be gaslit hundreds or even thousands of times a day just by watching the TV, and that says nothing about their interpersonal interactions.
Let's look at things from a broader scope, and I'll throw out a few names. Mark Zuckerberg, Jack Dorsey, Er8c Schmidt. How many times has one or more of their companies abused one or more individuals on their platform, and has publically denied it even in the face of evidence?
The purpose of this thread is to provide examples of narcissism as well as resources and information that can enable a gradually emerging /üb/erpony to better navigate the world and some of the more nefarious players they may come into contact with. To start things off, here are some good primer videos to broach the subject, by Dr Ramani. She has hundreds of videos ranging from 6-20+ depending on how deep she goes with each topic, all relating ultimately to Narcissism, abuse, awareness, and healing. As one who has lived with narcissistic abuse for years and am only now becoming better able to identify/detect and mitigate the presence and practices of narcissists (most especially malignant ones), my hope is that the content is as informative and actionable to the viewer as I have found it.
https://youtu.be/o8U321uCcvc
https://youtu.be/B9knwjZTaOU
https://youtu.be/d79qPeIt1GY
https://youtu.be/UTS5XsZe9Jg
https://youtu.be/lLsH2NJD1Vo
https://youtu.be/trh_eTkZLeU
https://youtu.be/8S5BtjpF9dA
https://youtu.be/qbFBOAmmu7Y

Do you have memorable dreams like I do? Why not share them? Dreams are gateways to one's subconscious and writing them down will help you understand important truths about yourself.

I had a dream just now where I had a series of conversations with very lifelike people I have never met. The first was one with two people who were also nor/mlpol/ice, a philosopher and a costume maker who was also a poet of sorts. The costume maker made thousands of dollars a year making high-effort costumes which he would then sell, like a tea kettle for instance or dragon. Our talk then shifted to the decline of the West and how they would describe it. They both impressed me with their knowledge of the English language, the costume-maker/poet in particular with how he was able to make florid language in a series of steps, with one line being longer than the next. I realized that I had neglected my creative side by pursuing the pragmatic, and then when I had grown tired of that becoming lazy. I resolved to rekindle that spirit.

The second was with a girl who had stayed with Kay's family, that Kay of Kay's cooking. In my dream Kay had a large and terrific family, though they were all awful cooks. I realized that I had neglected my own family which was a mistake because they bring me true joy.

The third was that I was chatting with a couple of blokes at an Irish pub I had been to before. They were former athletes, and although they no longer pursued professional sports, they still did swimming and weightlifting to stay healthy and have fun. I realized that I had neglected to have fun and am missing out on sports and social activities like drinking with friends. This dream in short was telling me how to improve my life and overall happiness.

If the nuts you busted to Rainbow Dash from MLPFIM'S premiere were inside a woman, you'd have at least one child aged at least ten by now.

So I bent my head backwards while sucking on a sore throat pill (or whatever they are called). It almost fell into my throat but thank God it didn't.

Anyway, I'm currently practicing the heimlich maneuver on myself so I can do it on myself or someone else if there ever is a need.

Here's a video:
https://duckduckgo.com/?t=ffab&q=Performing+the+Heimlich+Maneuver+on+Yourself&atb=v344-1&iax=videos&ia=videos&iai=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DljL9JcK6RnM

I can't really do it with a chair of table (It's just hard for some reason) but when I bend my back forward and slam my right fist with both my arms into my stomach, with some adjustments, I get a what I think is the desired effect.

The images attached to this op is the typical hilarious standard fair but they don't reflect how I feel at all. I have a strong imagination and empathy so after this happened I was basically bombarded by visions of how close death I was and how people could suffer such a horrible death just because they laughed while eating and got unlucky.

Also, (mane)uver. Heh heh but yeah I'm still in shock.

I need to get a gf. To get a gf, I will drive to a park or a place where cute, non-stacey girls hang out. To do this, I need to learn to drive.
I hate being alive no matter what I do, so tomorrow I will spend three hours practicing driving in the DMV parking lot, even though it says "No practice driving allowed."

What are some good plants to start growing? I want to have my own homestead someday, so I figure gardening would be a good way to learn to grow my own food.